The Big 30

Well, I am officially leaving my 20's. Not so happy about that either---especially because I am in a business where everyone lies about their hair color, their eye color, their height, their weight, their bra size, their shoe size and especially their age. So. What is a girl to do. Lie? Stay 29 for 4 more years or just admit it? Ok--truth time-- That is right folks I am turning 30. I am 5'1 not 5'2 I am 150 pounds and counting, I hate exersize--in fact I have had a gym memebership for MONTHS and I have gone 3 times. Once just to buy a protein shake. My shoe size is 7.5 WIDE. I am a 34 A in bra size (but still pretty damn perky, thank you very much). And you know what, it is me. Take it or leave it y'all. I am getting WAY bored with trying to think myself into someone elses idea of pretty or sexy or cute--cause you know what? I look in the mirror and me likes. My husband loves me for me ( please insert that cut song here " she likes me for me not because I look like....) and I am cool with ME. I have been feeling less then cute or pretty for YEARS. I just found an old picture from High School. It had all of my High School friends in the pictures with me. And, I remember feeling so Ugly compared to all of them--they all had boyfriends and guys who liked them/talked to them. I remember I had a huge crush on this boy Hans, and the only time he talked to me was so I could hook him up with a my best friend Sue, and Hans wasn't the only dude to do that to little Paigey, many many boys broke my heart that way. I wanted boys to like me, but I felt like matchmaker not promqueen in fact-no one asked me to any of my proms and since I was class president I had to go--I took my girl friends. Then got a reputation as a lesbian? so I thought well, maybe? I even asked a few lesbian freinds out--who said I was not their type. So I just felt ugly duckling for years. But looking back at that picture--of little Paigey I realized-- I wasn't just cute, I was way BETTER looking then most of these girls that had me feeling unfit to have a face! I have to turn this around. I am not going to start off a new decade of my life feeling old and ugly, So happy 30th birthday to me. and suck it cosmo, 17, People Magazine, and MTV. that is right..i said SUCK IT.